You never asked, so I kept my mouth shut. Because maybe, I didn't want you to feel that I was defensive. I guess instead, you felt that I was indifferent.
Which is usually how I am.
But not with you.
Never with you.
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"Could not help myself" meant that I chose to do as I pleased. It was not reflective of any fondness, or the level of like for someone--only me, wanting to do something. Without thinking.
"Had to do" meant that it seemed like the (theoretically) right thing to do. So I can tell myself that I did what I should do.
"Makes me scared" meant well, what it meant. Only, it was about you. Always you. I didn't feel the need to correct you. (description #1 stands!)
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Why am I writing? Because I heard that song today and thought about 'then' :)
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Rhea, before you ask... Johnny is an arbitrary name. I had never had a person called Johnny in my life. Similar names, yes. Full match, none.
Maybe not so random.
It means something that can be understood by the person in this post.
4 comments:
Your posts lately have been so melancholy. I hope all is well. Have a wonderful Thursday.
I'm good :) thanks.
I haven't been blogging a lot because I tend to use my tablet at home and typing could be a pain! I'm kicking myself though for not writing--and sewing the past few months.
somehow i thought the post was gonna be funny. "johnny" sounds funny to me. haha labo.
It's funny how you answered even before i asked :-) you know me too well :-P
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